my life!!!

i come from single parent family since i was 3-4 years old. Before that, my parents always quarrel for single minor thing that is look silly till dirvorce.So, starting 4 years old, i go to kindergarden by my own walking around 4 to 5 km, open and lock the door by myself, taking care of my small sis which is 3 years smaller than me and even learn to cook but just maggi mee lo.... hehehe... when i joining my primary school, due to i single parent family, schoolmate always make fun of me, bully me even think i'm a wild kid and being bully. But still there some still dote about me, feel a bit lucky on that. when enter secondary school, my attitude totally change till very single and no much friend cause very bad temper and hard to being together, more or least is afraid being hurt again. So, due to afraid being bully again, i go learn tae kwon do and being as a prefect, but cause changing attitude, no one is school like me even they not notice me. maybe that is my fate. After 5 years secondary school, i doing temporary work as promoter and know 1 girl that is nice and pretty. That time, i very happy about that, cause doing so many stupid together with her. I also very love her that time, even argue with my friend due to her. But when enter college life, everything totally change. One of my bestfriend that time wan woo my girlfriend, make out many story to let her think that i was changing and not love her anymore. Hell!!! where got kind of such ppl doing such thing. Really make my heart broken, I told my ex to break up but due she crying and mention that she love me more, i asking her to break with that guy, and start all over again. But her attitude was changing, after few weeks she mention want break with me due to mother not allow. I also don't know whether is true or not but just let her go. After that time, my life changing again, always disturb girl on net, ask them out for movieand tackle them. At the end, i being together with 1 of them cause felt that she really is a nice girl. treat me really nice and always listen to what i say. Can say is a perfect gf, but that time my heart still not calm for anything, and afraid i not good enough for her, so, choosing to break up with her. Don wan make both of us suffer cause i thinking let go also 1 of love. That time after break with her, i really concentrate in working till i don know everyday date and most of my time, i fully used it to play game in CC. So, really not thinking relationship that time. After certain time, i meet up 1 girl that i know her from the friendster, i ask her out and tackle her. Firstly, she very reject me for 2 times but at the end she agreed to be my gf and start a relationship with me. For my thinking at that time, she was also a very nice and good gf. In my heart, i thinking she is perfect althought i always complain her but still that thinking that she is perfect. we being together around 1 and a half year and i was very love her. Due to her mother objection and someone is wooing her, she left me. Not more than half year, she declare marry. that time, my heart really broken, can't do anything. Don know it is i bad or is my fate. why my life always facing this kind of situation.Now really don know what to do in my life.